Is it December Yet?

I am worried about Lil Ben’s surgery mainly because he knows what happening this time. He knows its coming up- scheduled for December 8th. He asks about it and tells me he is worried about it- as times when I least expect it to come up....like the other morning when I pulled the car into the parking spot at school - he asked if it was December yet. I said "no, not yet, why?" (thinking he was going to ask about Christmas) He said “I am just worried” I asked what he was worried about it (knowing, but hoping he was going to say something childish, like he was worried about what Santa was going to bring him). But, instead he said "I am just thinking about my surgery" ;o( This sucks. It is bad enough that I have to think about and worry about it, but the LAST thing I want him to think about is all of this! He needs to be a kid and NOT worry about this at all. Was I wrong in being open with him and communicating as to what was going on? I guess when I told him it was in December, it seemed so far away that I didn’t think about the repercussions of him realizing that it was getting closer. He also seems to connect it with Christmas. He told me yesterday that he wanted an IPad for Christmas. I asked him why and he told me that he had a great idea...we could download games on it and he could play it while he was in the hospital bed, but I might have to help him, for when he can’t open his eyes.....damn, I don’t want him thinking about that!! He is really pulling my heartstrings. ;o(

There is so much to think about!! I am so worried that the surgery will get rescheduled due to him getting sick or because the hospital is full....then we will have to wait even more (which is the worst) and if we go past January 1st our deductible for insurance starts over and we would be out ALOT more money! He started Kindergarten this fall with an early birthday- he is one of the youngest ones in his class. So we decided that he will not go back after the surgery, and repeat Kindergarten next year. As we get closer, I question how upset he will be when he truly understands that he is not going back to his teacher and all his friends. He is so young acting- that I don't regret making that decision, but I wonder if he'll miss everyone. Also, I am having to decide when to pull him out of school. I want him to be able to go as long as possible, BUT I don't want him exposed to a bunch of germs right beforehand either. We have Thanksgiving Break from Wed- Sun starting November 23rd. I was thinking that would be a good cut-off date. But then he will be sitting around thinking about the upcoming surgery, rather than being busy making Christmas projects with his friends.